Hi, I’m really embarrassed and genuinely cannot believe how much of an idiot I am - but I was caught in Sainsbury’s not scanning 2 pots of Hummus and a carrier bag using the smart shop. I’m a student, in a terrible amount of debt and I’m struggling for a money at the moment. I know none of this is any excuse at all and I’ve always been an absolute ‘scaredy cat’ with anything - I also have severe anxiety and depression and I’m on medication. Once again, none of this is absolutely relevant and I’m just an idiot. they caught me, checked my bags and took away the carrier bag and hummus - I bought and paid for £20 worth of food shopping might I add. I’ve realised I’ve hit a very low point in my life and I’m honestly just embarrassed and want to cry. I know this sounds really dramatic, but I’m also a student nurse and I’d just finished placement so was in my uniform. The manager was lovely with me and seemed sympathetic (as it was literally just hummus and a bag) but the security guard was horrible (for good reason). I was apologetic and saying there’s no excuse etc. but the security guard just seemed really off (once again, for good reason). He also said he saw me the other week doing the same to which I replied, I wasn’t even in this exact city as I’ve been back home for 2 weeks! that definitely wasn’t me - he told me “I’m not lying” I said, ok then. He took the manager to show her and she came back and said she’s seen it on the cctv one other time which was in May (once again, I have zero excuse)… the other week was obviously not me, that annoyed me a bit as he was very adamant to tell the manager that it was me! He said I do it frequently as well and it’s not an accident as I do this on purpose!! The manager stated she only has evidence from once in May, the security guard really annoyed me here but I was just too much in shock and wanting to cry at the time. Obviously I am an idiot and he obviously watched me not scan something the first time and then decided to catch me on the second (nearly 2 months apart). I don’t shoplift often (I admit to these times on the smart shop) but other than that, never ever. I have realised that I am now ‘that’ person that I used to comment on when I saw those people pinching bottles of alcohol and running out of the shop. Except mine was food on two occasions, so I am highly embarrassed and can’t understand how I’ve fell so low. I always pay for my things (mainly on credit card) which is how I’m in so much debt. My card literally declined on this occasion too so had to use my credit card. I’m really worried because I had to obviously look in the cctv for an image but the security guy also took my photo on his ?phone/?work phone?? I asked him where that photo will go and they all said it’s just for the records it won’t be released to public etc. but now I’m panicking and wondering where those photos actually will go? Why did he need to take my photo on a phone if it was on the cctv?? I’m worried that people will see it and see that I’m in my nursing uniform too. I drove home in silence and I’m honestly just hating myself so bad right now - I don’t care that I’m not allowed back in, I won’t even attempt it, I know I’ve done wrong and I’m an idiot for it. I’m just wanting any advice or information on the image side of things… who will see it? Will my images be passed around a group chat or something or an email to every Sainsbury’s worker in the UK etc. I’m just panicking a bit now in case people who know me see me… especially as I’m in my student uniform. Im just feeling really panicked and low now and I just wish I hadn’t even decided to nip into Sainsbury’s after my shift. I know this seems like a pity party and like “oh feel sorry for me” - it is not, I know I’ve done wrong and I hate myself so much right now! I am fully admitting my actions and I’ll obviously never ever do it again! I just want some advice and calming down please, as I don’t want to tell my friends or family for obvious reasons! thanks! Sorry it’s long