i was just being honest and told them i was away from home at the time and didnt know about it till i got back,some weeks later.ive had nothing to live on for weeks now and as far as i know you cant re-apply if youve been dis-allowed because you failed to attend a medical.this is really stressful living on nothing and not even sleeping properly because of stress

hello,i hope somebody can help me and give me some advice please as i just dont know what to do. i had been claiming ESA and missed the medical appointment as i was away over christmas visiting family,as ive been suffering from depression and needed to get away.Didnt realise they had sent for me until i got back after the holidays and sent in the paperwork explaining this.Since then ive had no benefit,they said they never recieved this paperwork,and my claims been closed.ive got nothing to live on except ive had to apply for crisis loans but i need to know what to do next! i dont want to claim for jsa as im not fit for work,so can i reclaim esa?thanks in advance!