Hi everyone. I'm hoping to get some advice. I'm going to go to the Doctors about my anxiety, stress, panic and depression after being told by a lot of people that I need professional help. The problem is, this Monday I have a workshop with Ingeus (jobsearch skills) and a workshop on Tuesday (interview skills) and then I'm at Ingeus again on Wednesday to see my adviser. I'm getting anxious just thinking about it. How can I go do the workshops without getting a panic or anxiety attack? I know it's impossible for me, I'll have a breakdown. I need to see the Dr but the thought of explaining to my adviser why I've missed the appointments fills me with dread and I end up with palpitations. Shall I just not go? It's getting to the point where I don't care if I get sanctioned, I need to get rid of these mental health problems before I do something stupid and Ingeus is one of the biggest contributions to my problem.

Oh right, well that makes sense now. Lol. I know that in my area there are two providers but you get sent at random (selected by the computer according to my JSA provider)

Sorry but what is an A4e and Working Links? You can tell I'm completely new to all of this.

Yes, I am on JSA. That's how I ended up with Ingeus. After being on JSA for a certain amount of time, they put you on the Ingeus program. I'm worried about going to my GP because the last thing I want or need is medication. I've had medication from my GP before to chill me out but they made me ill. I should talk to someone but I just don't want to be end up a drugged zombie. What is WRAG? I'm not sure what you mean. I have a little money saved away thankfully but it wouldn't last for long, at the moment all I can think of is just getting away from Ingeus. I'd rather struggle financially than end up regressing further with my mental health.

I hate Ingeus. I suffer with panic attacks and anxiety and since going to Ingeus I have regressed so much. I'm depressed for the first time in months (I had battled my way through it only to be pushed back in by Ingeus) I even had self-harming thoughts, I'm having anxiety and panic attacks more often now and I feel worthless. I'm adamant that this is the doing of that hell-hole. My adviser doesn't give two hoots about me. She made out she was there to help and my naivety made me believe her until she threw all of my prospects back in my face. She told me she'd help me become self-employed, got me to fill out a business plan and really made me believe I had a good business idea and then told me none of it was realistic and told me I'd need a job, that self-employment for me isn't a realistic option. She knows that I have poor mental health (anxiety, depression, panic, stress) but seems completely uncaring. I've tried to tell her that it's difficult for me to go out and approach employers or phone them because I suffer with anxiety and panic but she ignores me. Now apparently my efforts are not enough and she wants me to apply for a minimum of 15 jobs a week. I see her on a weekly basis and I hate it, 15 jobs is not realistic! I struggled to apply for 2 this week and I felt that was a good effort. I feel so pushed down and undervalued. Honestly, I'm considering just telling the job centre they can stuff their benefits because the thought of going back into that Ingeus office makes me feel physically ill, it genuinely upsets me and I cannot stand the thought of being their puppet any longer. I just want rid of Ingeus and it's claws. I feel so trapped, this is a 2 year plan... If I sign off, will that mean I'm free of Ingeus too? I'd rather struggle and have no money than be miserable like this.