Hi,
I need some advice. I have currently been suspended from my work due to alot of issues which goes back to when my mum passed away unexpectly 3 days before my 21st birthday.
I know I am severly depressed and have tried to commit suicide a few times, the police attended once so they would have it on record that a friend was very concerned about my welfare etc, that night after the police left me I took a months worth of strong sleeping pills and lots of other pills.
I had an investigatory and disciplinary meeting with my employer and they are very concerned about what I have been doing to my self (excessive drink and drug use). at this meeting I basically told them I don't really know what I want to happen next whether I want to return to work or leave to sort my life out.
The past year has made my life go totally down hill and I think I have now finally hit rock bottom and feel I have nothing else to live for.
Before my mum passed away some would say I was on the top of the mountain, 20yrs old, rented a 2bed luxury flat, had a great social life, earnt 22-29k a year and was highly thought of by the management, the MD actually told me that I was indispensable.
Here are the events that happened over the past year briefly
Mum passed away, the youngest and only child out of 3 to sit with her before the coroner came
Work gave me 3months fully paid sick and compassionate leave
Arranged the funeral on my own, without the help of family members
Grandparents fraudently received Death Insurance and lied to me and my siblings
Started heavily drinking, doing drugs and totally unable to sleep
Got evicted from my flat for rent arrears, moved in with my sister
Got Carbon Monoxide Poisioning
Got arrested for accusations of fraud
Had an informal meeting with my work due to the excessive absense and fraud accusations
Started counselling for "Employment Retention"
Then got suspended for the above and looking at confidential information
I personally feel that I need to take a break from my job of which I have been there for 3 years now to get my life back on track. My role in the company is very stressful and puts alot of pressure on me.
I am considering leaving employment due to my depression as I really feel I need to concentrate on getting through this bad spell. My sister currently claims benefits so I would be added to the Housing Benefit Claim but I am wondering how I should really go about this to be able to claim ESA ASAP as I can easily get a sick note from my GP for 3months and I should be able to extend it constantly.
Thanks in advance for any advice